“Please, God, don’t let me step away from my girls toward Ghent. Don’t let me carry them there either. May they hear the same song. Until that final dance on their wedding day or yours, let me look them in the eye and carefully lead them by your three beat rhythm alone. In the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.”
That was my prayer a couple of weeks ago. God has answered it with the clarity of a brick to the frontal lobe. I have not been leading the people who matter most to me and cannot continue in this project at the risk of losing their hand. So this will be my last post for now. The Ghent project is shelved.
May God’s will be done. If He wants me or someone else to move in this, He will provide the call. As for me, I am simplifying my life to work on my place as dad and husband. That is enough.
“From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him. ‘You do not want to leave too, do you?’ Jesus asked the Twelve. Simon Peter answered him, ‘Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We have come to believe and to know that you are the Holy One of God.’ - John 6:66-68 NIV”
Things just got real. The only time Jesus could have asked this question was right then. Any other time it would have been easy to say “no way are we leaving this party”, but this moment was different. Jesus starts talking like a cannibalistic mad man. Disciples were defecting daily and everything appeared to be going in the wrong direction.
Notice, Peter doesn’t even give a straight answer. Instead of saying, “No, we won’t leave you.” He says, “What other option is there?” This implies that there are times when even the called look for the back door.
I think Jesus knew Peter and the others would ultimately stick with it. However, I’m not sure Peter himself knew he would until it actually came out of his mouth. This is a moment of clarity for a man who has a talent for self-deception. I can relate.
What about now, Chris? What about times when everything can drastically change in a day? What about when you must face your own weakness and ignorance in the presence of a calling that is bigger than you? Now that God just seems to say and do strange things and disciples may defect, will you still follow me?
I can’t find the back door.
Please take a moment and avail yourself to this foray into the sociological phenomenon that is the Ghento.